Beautiful Disaster.

YThursday, June 22, 2006
went out after soo long today wit my youngest and my one and only sisters..
went starbucks hopping and damned it was a BLAST. but hell..i went back to campus earlier and realised the amount of workload i have. bollocks.

Look at the pics and u'll be able to fathom y we had fun.HAHA.

Thats my sis' ugly slippers and my fave sneaks!! hehe..
and oh yeah..my ezlink dropped and it bcame an ART.
creative arent we not? (nahhhh...hahhah)

Candid pic of one and only and i while waiting for the bus

Demented and Acting adorable (wic is not at all tat hard) =p

we just wont stop...HAHA

LASTLYY..the finale! it is the TRUE candid pic..and this is how we really look like outside.
HAHA!friggin ugly...really.*bashing*

With so many good times like tis...i keep wondering.
Why do i let hurt and depression get in the way in tiny moments of sadness.

Like so wat if my frens abandoned me or if they are always wit theirs lovers or if im not "COOLLL ENUFF" for them to chillout with. Or even wen i choose to be alone..really why should i bother by straining my muscles by gettin hurt?
of course the pang of heartache and feelin of rejection resided conveniently on my chest and mind..bt i managed to brush it rite away..

cuz i KNOW that the ppl who will ultimately be by my side thru good and bad times are gona be family and they are the ones who are gona love me unconditionally.

SO y do some let such an artificial relationship hurt family? or abandon family for such an undeserving commitment.

in acceptance of one's whole in weakness and strength and family in happiness and sadness is true commitment to me.
so am i wrong to not want to be in love if he's not able to commit?

i take back the fact that i need no man in my life. i know marriage is a gift, a sacred union that i wud love to experience. and YES im tooo freakin young.

SO im not thinking abt it...and im not thinking abt commitment just yet til someone proves me wrong..and till then..im gona be happy tis way living this life like there's no tomorrow and makin the most of it.
all the MEN in the world can do whatever they want and i'll try to NOT giv a damn.HEH.

GoodNite!

and yeah im hopin for NEDERLANDS to win tis match.

woop! sleep well y'all!
_callous_ was here with you at 2:08 AM .

Emylin
The Ride

this life is all about loving and losing. sacrificing and hurting.
being dissappointed in just about anything including urself.

this is life in my eyes.

- an unbearable excruciating painful hurt and experience that kills.
life in living is like death in dying.
where u live with a purpose and u die with a cause
all of which reasons hurt
and none of which will give u the happiness that u deserve.

yes i am fickle and yes i am a hardcore depressed chic.
but no.im no bimbo cuz i apparently make use of my brain cells 3/4 of my waking hour.
dun mess with me.